Tired

Tiredness is starting to set in. I’m tired these days. I’m tired when I go to sleep. I’m tired when I wake up. I’m tired at various points throughout the day.

I’m tired of it being almost constantly dark outside. I’m tired of spending what little daylight we have sitting at a computer screen. I’m tired of moaning at myself for thinking this.

I’m tired of going on property websites out of curiosity for the kinds of house I could potentially by with money I don’t have yet. I’m tired of playing a waiting game to build up the amount of money I might need. I’m tired of spending time playing for time. I’m tired of not really spending. I’m tired of wondering if it’ll all really be worth it. I’m tired of worrying I might accidentally get hit by a bus and it not being worth it.

I’m tired of being tired.

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Now for some electronic noises, bleeps and synthiness. It’s distant enough from what MGMT came out with a few years back, yet not so distant that it sounds like something else entirely. I think that’s what they might refer to as a maturing process.

I won’t even bother trying to explain this video. Big hair, stately homes and randomly chopping fruit are all well and good on their own, but together? I dunno.

MGMT – Little Dark Age