Last time on whatever the hell this is, I opened up and poured out some stuff I hadn’t really mentioned to many, if any, people before. In case you can’t be bothered to go back and read through the last post from two weeks ago, allow me to give you a bit of a TL;DR here:
Years ago I wondered what it’s like to do radio presenting, last month I started volunteering at a community radio station to give it a go.
Now that we’re all caught up, I have another development to share in this story, almost as if God or whatever version of almighty deity you believe in was waiting for me to hit Publish before implementing the next stage of his/her/its banal masterplan.
In the fortnight that’s passed, the community station I’ve begun volunteering at has made the decision to close down shortly before the end of the year. They told it was because of funding, but I can’t help thinking the timing’s a bit to convenient, leaving me to wonder whether this is just an elaborate way of getting rid of me without actually getting rid of me. Like when a band decides to split up only to reform a few months later but without the drummer nobody really got along with yet nobody felt strong willed enough to actually kick out of the band.
Ridiculous and not-entirely-genuine conspiracy theory aside, in a weird way, news of the station’s closure kind of makes me feel okay. Not that I was planning on quitting or hating my brief time there, it almost feels like a mission accomplished really. In the last post, I might’ve said (I can’t actually remember and I’m not going back through it right now) that I really just wanted to give it a go to see what it’s like. Curiosity took hold and that curiosity has more-or-less been satisfied.
There are still a good six weeks or so before it’s all over, so really I’m thinking of this whole experience as something of a free trial period. No commitment. Your trial expires at the end of November. If you’d like to continue with us, we’ll, you can’t, but you could try somewhere else if you’re genuinely interested in committing on a longer term basis.
I’ve always been a bit flaky with things, wanting something for so long and then as soon as I get it I kind of end up getting bored of it after a while. That wasn’t necessarily happening here, but I did have my worries that the boredom would settle in at some point and make me feel like this thing I’ve been chasing for a while isn’t what I wanted. With the decision taken out of my hands, I still get to briefly enjoy it without going on for long enough to get sick of it.
As for the future, do I really want to seek out a longer deal somewhere once the trial period ends? I’m not sure, but even if I did, I can’t see it happening for a while. And that’s okay. Because I’ve given it a go and I’ve enjoyed it. That’s really all I wanted, I guess.
This is sort of like an understated dance number you might get in some nightclub somewhere around 3am when everyone’s knackered and needs a bit of a wind down. That said, I haven’t so much as thought about a nightclub for at least five years now, let alone ventured to one, so what the hell do I know?
It doesn’t come until about a third of the way through, but there’s a distinctive wobbly, fading in-and-out-y squealing sound that catches my ear most in this. As for the rest of it, well it trundles along nicely somewhere in between not too punchy and not too boring, which I might make as a motto for my own life, really.
Cosha – Do You Wanna Dance
Jamie Walsh 
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